How do I follow that?…

Well, it seems I rattled a few cages with my most recent post… I have received nothing but positive replies from those that decided they needed to respond to my post, and for that I thank them. I have received a lot of positive responses, but the silence of the majority of those that follow me speaks volumes. I don’t expect everyone to have an opinion, nor do I expect all of you to agree with what I said last night. To show how serious I am, let me go a step further.

It is no secret that I am not a fan of the sitting President of the United States, he is a buffoon, he is an idiot, he has no concept of taking care of a country, he only cares about himself, and how much he can get his followers to praise him. He tweets nonsense at 3 am and expects everyone to not only agree with him but to praise him for the content of those tweets. This is blind adoration, this is cult-like praise, and those that will go along with everything he says or does is similar to what Nazi Germany experienced in the ’30s and ’40s. I don’t use that analogy lightly, because to compare the idiot to the most hated man in the history of the world is not exactly smart blogging, but that’s what I see. He has his own propaganda station in Fox News, whom will praise anything he says, agree with the most absurd notions that he spews from his Twitter account, and is basically the lapdog for whatever Trump wants to say or do.

Your “Dear Leader” is leading you into oblivion, and he doesn’t care as long as it benefits him his ego, and his bank account. Deny it all you want, tell me I’m crazy, tell me I have Trump Derangement Syndrome, but the fact of the matter is he doesn’t care about this country, its citizens or who gets trampled along the way. History will show him as the idiot and fraud that he is, all I have to do is sit back and watch it happen. I won’t entertain any Trump disciple in an argument, nor will I consider having a discussion with anyone that decides to come at me for what I say, because as I mentioned in my previous post, you will no more change my belief in the truth, as I will in trying to convince you otherwise. It is useless to argue with Trump supporters when all they want to do is criticize your character, your patriotism or your love of what this country REALLY stands for.

Gonna move on from this sore subject and talk about a few things I am dealing with in my life. I am a 52-year-old heterosexual straight white male. I know white privilege, I have never experienced discrimination, never been passed up for promotion because a minority was awarded it over me. I am happy in my job, I am good at what I do, and feel that I am rewarded for what I can do. However, here are a couple of things in my life right now that are pushing the limits of my sanity. First, let’s talk about my health because I am 52 after all and with my age comes health issues. I am experiencing gastrointestinal issues currently and I have been tested with ultrasounds, blood tests, MRI’s, Cat Scans, and stool samples, but as yet, after three months, there are still no answers. I have had a colonoscopy, the results of which will be discussed with me on June 13th, I have provided samples on two different occasions, none of which have diagnosed what it is I have. My mornings are spent on the throne, hoping to get it all “out” before having to go to work. I am afraid to leave my apartment, for fear of embarrassing myself in public, so I go into each day with the hope that I can make it through the day and avoid any situations that could reveal my issues. Despite all of that, I go to work, I perform as expected, and I put on a show for my co-workers so as not to reveal how frustrated I am with my current health. It’s not easy putting on this face, but I love what I do, and the work I do provides me an escape from my personal issues.

The other thing is financial, and this is something I knew was coming for a long time. You see, 20 years ago, I enrolled in college, and I was encouraged to apply for student loans in order to pay for it. I have my FIRST ex-wife to thank for this as she is the one that encouraged me to go back to school to better myself. I was 34 and was in a dark place and school seemed the best way to try and change my situation. Boy… was I both stupid and naive to think that was the answer to my problems. I never did graduate, and I regret ever going back to school, thinking it could benefit my situation. Fast-forward to 2019 and I have $72,000 in student loans that need to be paid. The Department of Education wants to garnish my wages to the tune of $345.95/mo in order to pay it all back. As I pointed out in my previous post, I live paycheck to paycheck, only able to pay the bills and put food in my stomach, with not much left over in case something major happens to either my car, my health, or whatever another unseen crisis is going to rear its ugly head. I also have over $1500.00 in medical bills outstanding because of my ER visit in November, so wage garnishment is the LAST thing I need right now. Despite all of this, I still feel blessed and lucky, simply because I have a roof over my head, I have a great job that I am good at, and people in my life that care about me. That’s all I need right now, the issues I am facing will work itself out, and I truly believe that I will come out on the other side better for having to go through it all. My struggle is real, but it pales in comparison to others that are dealing with homelessness, bankruptcy, foreclosure, no food, no income, and most of all, no self-respect in the face of adversity. I realize I am better off than others, but it doesn’t diminish the fact that I am struggling, I am barely keeping my head above water and as long as I have a breath left in my body, I will continue to move forward, looking for a time that I have nothing over my head that can keep me down.

Despite all that is going on, I am still positive. I love my life, I cherish my relationships, friends, and my family, because no matter what I am going through they will always be there for me, and for that alone I am thankful. I still have a heartbeat, I am still breathing, and as long as those two things are in play, I know I can succeed. For those that feel they are alone in this world, look deep at the people in your life, know that you have those that care about you, your success and your well being. this will make you stronger, and able to move forward into tomorrow and kick life’s ass one step at a time.

Tonight’s post is all about leaving it all on the table to show my perspective of life, and to express that even when things are bleak, there is hope, and there is a light at the end of a tunnel that is most definitely NOT a train. fight for every minute, for every second and you will have a more positive outlook on life. I try not to let the stupid shit get me down, simply because I am here. I have a heartbeat, I have breath in me, and I have a supporting cast second to none. Thank you to those friends and family that have my back, that will be there for me if I need them. I need to learn to appreciate you, to love you, and above all else, believe that you will always be there for me if I need a shoulder to cry on…

G’night everyone… Be kind to yourself… and each other…

Scott – “The Sports Nerd”

Uncertainty… Fear… My Real Thoughts

This is gonna be a doozy. I am posting this to all of my blogs, social media, and apps… I have struggled with wanting to put down what is going through my head for years. I have been afraid to say how I really feel, how what is going on in the world, both sports and non-sports affects me personally. The reason is I live in a world where I am a minority. I am a Middle aged, white, heterosexual, progressive (Liberal, Democrat, whatever..) male and the majority of the people that I interact with on a daily basis, including my family and closest friends are not, so you see my dilemma, do I spout my “demonic, commie, socialist, and heathen” ideas or just sit back and watch the world burn, only caring about my little circle of the world.

These fears are real, and they fester and stew in my brain on a daily basis. There are times when I want to shout it from the rooftops, and then there are times where I just want to crawl in a hole and hide, so as not to upset the proverbial apple cart. I know that if I truly post what I feel, I run the risk of alienating my family, my co-workers and the people I truly care about. Call this post a “coming out party” of sorts, because I have hidden behind these fears for years, and is why I usually take weeks-long breaks from posting, because I know that if I truly post what I feel, I’m gonna piss off the people I care about, and that is what prevents me from putting my thoughts down. I don’t know if it will affect my employment, affect my relationship with family, or alienate those friends that I hold dear.

Sure, I could just “stick to sports” I am The Sports Nerd after all, but lately real-world issues and politics have crossed over to the sports world and it has become more difficult to keep my thoughts to myself. I really don’t know how to react, or even if I should react. Maybe the words I want to put down won’t come easy, maybe I will screw up the message, maybe offend or piss off the wrong person. who knows, all I DO know is that I am in the minority of my circle of friends, family, and co-workers when it comes to politics and I have been a political junkie ever since just before 9/11 and since then have witnessed the country that I was taught was second to none in the world has become the very threat that we fought to eliminate in WWII. Today of all days, as we honor those that sacrificed everything on the beaches of Normandy I see our country separating families, allowing children to die in government custody, and punishing those that want a better life for themselves and their families, I sit here wondering if The United States has become the very evil it was created to fight against.

I am but one voice, I do not have resources to rise up and fight what I feel is wrong, but yet, with the advent of social media and the outreach it can create, I can’t help but wonder if I can, in fact, make a difference. I’m 52 years old with health issues, my time left on this Earth is limited, but yet I want to leave this life with a future that is hopeful, positive, and the promise of things being better for my son, who actually felt it better to move halfway across the world rather than stay in this country. I have always felt he was much smarter than I ever was, he immersed himself in music, playing the guitar, drums and whatever he could get his hands on, something that I was never able to accomplish post-high school. I honestly worry about his future, what we will leave behind, and how that will impact future generations. What I DO know is we can’t continue on the path we are on, because the endgame of that is the destruction of the human race as we know it. Global Warming is real folks, science has proven it, and it is fact. The United States continues to interfere with conflicts and governments across the globe, issues, and situations that we have no business interfering with, but yet our “leaders” say we have to be involved in order to guarantee freedom and liberty for everyone. My only question regarding that philosophy is how many women, children and innocent, unarmed civilians have died in the search for these ideals. Remember Korea, Vietnam, Afghanistan, Iraq, and now Syria, Sudan, and lord know what other government we are sticking our noses into in order to preserve “freedom and Democracy”?

I don’t pretend to have any answers, nor do I intend to offer any here on this post, but this is the dilemma I live with on a daily basis. Inside I want to scream and say how wrong we are, how arrogant and vile we have become as a nation, where children are killed at school almost on a daily basis, how the very powerful and rich make all of the decisions, and how politics prevents any solutions to these problems from being corrected. I could sit here and write for days about the President or Congress (all of them) is the problem and what angers me but it won’t solve anything. I am just one voice, I am just one nameless person in a country of 350 million, in a world of 5 billion, but yet… here we are.

Most of my loved ones, friends, co-workers and those that know me from my past will probably disagree with me, but I speak these words from not just my head, but from my heart, and I tell you, this country is not the greatest country in the world, it is not the be all end all poster child for Democracy, it is, in fact, a Republic, and as all Republics, it is flawed, and it becomes more flawed each and every day. You can put blinders on and think that it will get better, or you can rise up and get involved to make it better. I have always believed that making things better has nothing to do with who is the President, or even who represents us in Washington. It matters what happens at the local level, at the state level, because meaningful change happens from the ground up. When we strive to make changes at the local and state level, the ramifications and the wave of change will impact what happens at the national level.

A true Republic looks out for its citizens, whether they be Black, White, Latino, Gay, Straight, Tran-sexual, whatever, it doesn’t matter. We have people living on the streets, both veteran and non-veteran, we have a gun problem, we have problems with infrastructure, with minimum wage, with unemployment, and we have the 1% controlling everything from manufacturing to wages, to politics, to keeping the common man in its place. It’s easy for me to sit here and point my fingers at the rich since I am not one of them, I earn less than $40,000 per year, I have Credit card debt, student loan debt, and am living paycheck to paycheck. I don’t have a college degree, and I have been divorced, TWICE, but even with all of those problems and issues, I can still see where my country has no longer become the answer, but part of the problem that is infecting the world and there is no power out there that can interfere with our intrusion of other cultures, other governments, and most of all, the day-to-day happenings of not only other countries citizens but our citizens in the US as well.

This has been a long-winded post thus far, and I suppose I will pay for it eventually, because I will be traveling to my folks place in north Florida in about a month and will have to face my Conservative family and listen to their praises of the current administration and the glory of The United States of America. I will be uncomfortable, I will be chastised, and they will probably try and set me straight to the error of my ways, but they can’t change my mind, nor more than I can change theirs. This will not diminish my love for all of them, and it will not prevent me from future visits, because blood is thicker than water and I love them no matter their political leanings. I will not instigate, I will not criticize, and I will not dislike them or disown them for their beliefs because as family, I love them for who they are, not what they believe.

We all have to live with our decisions, and we all have to live with how we view the world. I prefer to move on in life not judging people based on their political leanings, but on how they treat me and how they treat others because that is the only true judge of character. If you treat others like shit, then you are shit, if you treat others with respect then the other things don’t matter. I treat others as I want to be treated, and if you wrong me, then I have no respect for you. The friends I have met over the years are dear to me, and I love them no matter what they believe, that will never change. In return, I ask that they respect and love me for who I am, and not who they may feel I am. We all have to go through this life on our own path, and if you believe in a higher power than we all believe that power will judge us when our time here on Earth is done based on what we did for each other and our actions. I don’t judge you for your beliefs any more than I expect you to judge me based on what I believe, but human emotions have a tendency to get in the way, so there will be those that judge me based on those emotions, and I am OK with that.

I have been holding this in for a long time and it feels pretty good to get it out, but I know there are ramifications for it, because there are some out there that won’t agree with what I have had to say, and that’s OK, because no two people see things exactly the same. All I can say is that I have kept these feelings tied up inside for a long time. To be honest, these emotions have prevented me from writing more and from putting what I really thought down for the world to see. Moving forward, I will NOT allow these voices to get the best of me and cause me to pause before putting what I am REALLY thinking down for the world to see. I may lose friends along the way, hell I may alienate some family members along the way, but fear will no longer dictate how I feel and how I express how I feel. I will focus mostly on sports, and I will not shy away from my opinions regarding the state of whatever sport I decide to discuss on any given day but also understand that if world events warrant it, I will express EXACTLY how I feel.

With that all being said… Go St Louis… Go Toronto… Go Tribe…
Go Browns… We are less than 100 days from opening day of the 2019 NFL season, and I can’t wait for Football to start. Fuck off to any team from Boston, Pittsburgh, and the Big 10 outside of Columbus Ohio. Thank you for reading this long-winded gas baggery of a post… I ask that you are kind to yourself, and to each other… see you soon…

Scott “The Sports Nerd”

Just a quick post tonight

Hi all.. I only have a couple things on my mind tonight as I begin a 5 day vacation. First, I had an MRI this morning of my neck to see if there is a possibility of a pinched nerve or worse, once the results are in I will share what is going on with the tingling and numbness that happened back in November. my symptoms have been almost non-existent recently but I have been doing physical therapy for the last few weeks and, to be honest, I have been more concerned with other issues that have been going on the last month. I don’t think they are serious in the long run, but that begins to be addressed tomorrow with a scheduled consultation with a new Dr. tomorrow. I will share how that goes on my next post.. Anyway, on to more fun topics.

The Stanley Cup playoffs start tonight and I am very happy about that. The bolts start their first-round series against the Blue Jackets. Historical note, the Head Coach of the Blue Jackets is John Tortorella, who just happened to be the head coach of The Tampa Bay Lightning when they won The Cup in 2004.

The Masters begin tomorrow, thus the reason for the five days off, and I am excited for it to begin. enjoyed the Par 3 contest today, and look forward to watching many different feeds over the course of the next 4 days taking it all in until a winner is decided on Sunday night. I have three favorites, Rickie Fowler, Rory McIlroy, and of course, Tiger. The Best tournament of the year, on the best course, loaded with the best players in the world. there is never a dull moment and Sunday at Augusta is some of the most exciting golf of the year, especially if you are a fan of the game.

That’s all I have for now… Have a great night!!

Scott “The Sports Nerd”

Well, here we are….

Well, it’s been a while, and a lot has happened since my last post over a week ago. I am dealing with some health issues and although in the long run, they will probably be minor, it has messed with my head and my motivation. I have really started to feel my age and the effects of what I have done to my body the last 30 or so years, and it seems to an extent, it is starting to catch up to me. I’m in the process of taking care of those issues and to be honest, I have actually started to put the worriers in the back of my mind and try and focus on what I can control, and that is work, friendships, and this blog. Rest assured I’m not going anywhere and the issues are NOT in any way shape or form serious at this point so I am not going anywhere.

So… the Sports world is pretty busy these days, despite the fact that the NFL is in the offseason, there have been plenty other goings-on that can be addressed and highlighted here as I am so “famous” for doing. But where to start is the question, but with some good music blaring in my ear and a website to keep going let’s dive right into it shall we? First, the NHL Playoffs are about to start Wednesday night with a full slate of first-round matchups set to begin. Tampa-Columbus, Pittsburgh-NYIslanders, St Louis-Winnipeg, Dallas-Nashville, and Vegas-San Jose all start their series on Wednesday night, with Toronto-Boston, Pittsburgh-Carolina, and Colorado-Calgary starting their series on Thursday night. My fandom is worn on my sleeve, as a die-hard Tampa Bay fan, the Presidents Trophy winner, the leagues top point winner and arguably the best goalie in the NHL, the bolts look to do what they haven’t done in 15 years, and that is lift Lord Stanley’s cup high over Tampa Bay. Having the best record in the NHL means nothing if you don’t win the cup, so “bring it home boys” will be my motto for the next couple of months.

Since I was shot down during The Sports Nerds Show last night due to no interest, I will share my thoughts on the NCAA Final Four in Minneapolis. I actually DID watch both games Saturday night and they were both excellent games, with the early game providing more drama than the late game. Virginia beat Auburn to advance to the final tonight due to a couple of controversial calls/non-calls at the end of the game. First, the refs missed a BLATANT double dribble by Virginia player Ty Jerome in the waning seconds of the game, allowing Kyle Guy to loft a last second three pointer at the end of the game. Guy was fouled and went to the line for three free throw shots. He nailed all three with seemingly “Jimmy Chitwood” confidence and sent the Cavaliers to the Championship Game tonight against Texas Tech, who defeated perennial NCAA Tournament powerhouse by 10 points behind the heroics of Matt Mooney, who scored 22 points, including four three-pointers, three of which came in a 2 1/2 minute span in the second half to lead the Raiders to their first ever Championship Final. With tip-off scheduled around 9:30 eastern tonight, I don’t know if I will be able to stay up for this one, after all I DO have a real job to go to in the morning….lol.

I want to close tonight’s post out with some NFL news. In case anyone was wondering or had any questions on their mind, Antonio Brown is a DOUCHE. He needs to move on to his new team, get the Steelers and Ju Ju out of his head and just prepare for the season. going after him on Twitter and proving what a little “BITCH” he is, does no one any good and only makes him look like the bad guy. Dude.. get over it, The Steelers were done with your antics, your drama, and your diva attitude. As a good friend of mine said last night during the show… you will have plenty of time to whine and moan trying to catch bounce passes from Derek Carr next season, so you have plenty to worry and bitch about so leave the past be the past and just move on…

Now there are several other subjects I could approach tonight in this post, but I am going to let this one stand as it is. Just a few things tolook forward to coming up.. Tonight’s National Championship game, the NFL draft is in two weeks, and my favorite week of the year is here… It’s Masters week, and as is my usual tradition, I will be off work from Wednesday through the weekend watching as much golf as I possibly can. this is my favorite tournament, and the ONLY one I take time off work for each year. Look for posts all this week to be golf-heavy and full of talk about tradition and history. Have a great week everyone, and #GoBolts!!!!

PS: – a HUGE shout-out to Blain Jones for moving my stand-alone site over to his server this week. He saved the website from certain deletion, and I am eternally grateful to him for doing that. Along with that, a big thank you to sunny Suggs for hosting my site for the last several years, I appreciate your patience, your kindness and your friendship.. and to quote your own catchphrase.. I #MissYourFace… love you…

Scott – “The Sports Nerd”

GRONK!!!!!!

So, Rob Gronkowski has decided to retire. the question is not whether or not he is a hall-of-famer but the question is, as we discussed on The
Sports Nerds
last night, is whether or not he is the greatest Tight End in the history of the NFL. I say no, as there were many that came before him that I feel are better… Tony Gonzales, John Mackey, Shannon Sharpe, Ozzie Newsome (GO BROWNS), and my favorite, Kellen Winslow, just to name a few. Gronk was the greatest of his era, no doubt, but the greatest of all time, no I don’t think so. His longevity is an issue for me. he only played 9 years, and the only players to play less and still make the Hall of Fame were Terrell Davis and Gayle Sayers. Jim Brown played 9 years, Barry Sanders played 10, is Gronk on their level? Well, maybe not but I do feel he is a Hall of Fame player and will reside in the Hall when his time comes. I am not sure if he will be a first ballot (despite the praises of the media) but he is a Hall of Famer in my book. With all of that being said, I know a lot of AFC East teams and fans that will be happy to see Gronk is no longer on the Patriots roster for 2019.

The Sweet Sixteen is set, and this weekend’s games did not disappoint, with the nail-biter in the UCF-Duke game being the most exciting of them all. I was watching that game during the show and wow how could that ball not fall in at the end. UCF nearly pulled off the upset and Duke escapes with the win and a trip to the Sweet Sixteen for the (I think) 26th time in its history. That is the most for any school in NCAAA division one and is a testament to Coach K (you think I am going to try and spell his name?) and the program at Duke. However, on a more somber note, and this is another topic we discussed on the show last night (you should really come see us) is the exploitation of these college athletes to the point where they get no reward for their performance and their names and likenesses are exploited to the point that CBS even created a “Zion Cam” to cover Zion Williamson exclusively, CBS gets to use this kid’s name and likeness to make money, while at the same time, the schools involved in the tournament and the NCAA itself make billions off of these kids. I am in favor of paying these athletes, but the scope of that payment is a gray area for me as I am not exactly sure by what method to compensate them. Some will argue that the education these kids get as compensation is enough, but if you look at the scope of the amount of money the schools and the NCAA get for the tournament, as well as NCAA Football and the Bowl Games it pales in comparison. Pay these kids!!!

Thank you for reading.. and please.. join me, Jon G Olson, Eliot “Big E” Lomba, Bob “The Beer Man” Pizor and Brian “Scooter” Cullen for The Sports Nerds each Sunday night on Vimm.tv each Sunday night at 7pm Eastern

Scott – The Sports Nerd